You get that feeling where you don’t wanna talk to anybody? You don’t wanna smile and you don’t want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either. There isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you’re alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take ‘I don’t know’ for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.

Today i was just on time for PIPC quiz. Oh gosh, me and my bad habits. Why am i always never punctual. Well, skipped the last PIPC lecture for bubble tea opposite school. Had the best time with steph, shan and gen. Our gaps are slowly being pulled together, like braces. Yeah. (Don't laugh) Except for Char, everything's fine. Because she;s been hanging out with Touch people so often, we're NEGLECTED.  We sure need to talk. I hope everything's going to be alright again. Afterwards, didn't feel hungry so we went to the library to watch this Australian Network channel on cable TV, and decided we were going to be farmers in the future. The one with the moos and neighs, not those wheat grains. The animals we mean. We sure have lots of ambitions. A class hospital/petshop/farm. Maybe overseas. We'll have to see about that. And then Kent can be the CEO considering his age and experience. (Old man) Then we started getting high, and shan and i did the visa dance just suddenly. Hilarious. We were laughing uncontrollably, as well as imitating the australian accent. But we got bored shortly after, so we rented Matilda. (Alternative was James and the giant peach!) We didn't finish the show though, and it was just at the climax! But we couldn't afford to be late for HAP tutorial. I hate that sinister POH. We were practically starving in the tutorial because we totally forgot about lunch! So we attacked ITAS after lessons, and even contemplated skipping lectures. We didn't. But i still didn't catch anything.  Went shopping after school. Alright, it wasn't exactly shopping. We really weren't intending to shop. But i just got those green pumps from Topshop. Well, we were messing up Topshop, trying out those killer heels and i felt bad, cos the salesperson had to tidy it up. So i bought something. At least i didn't spend over $20. And it really was worth it. Just that i see those blisters coming. GIRLS, REALLY. The saying: Don't buy it if it doesn't fit" really doesn't work on us at all. No point having that saying . Well anyway, shopping really kills time. Qianying and i didn't even realise we were running late. So we attempted to rush back to school. Met up with shirley and Nic to the student lounge. It kind of felt like a waste of time being there, because shirley and i were screaming away listening to Alvin's ghostly experiences. If not for the Harry potter book i had to lend yun loong, i probably wouldn't go. And i just had a negotiation with him. For every book he borrows, he treats me ice cream. The thicker, the bigger the ice cream. And i can choose between frolick, ben and jerrys and all. HURRAY. I love being the walking library. ( i lend videos too) K so i left the student lounge rather late, and so i didn't get to meet my clique. Sighs, miss them so.